Day 178 of 2022

So I don’t have much to say today, or I should say I have a lot to say but haven’t had time to write it out yet 😂.

I’ve been neglecting the journal portion of my chaotic website. Lack of time to properly sit and write is the main reason, but if I’m honest, it also has to do with – should I really be writing that shit down? Idk, I set out to do so but then have been more focused on trying to grow my shop.

Truthfully, I am at negative dollars at the moment so it really hasn’t paid off and it’s time to get serious about getting a job. I have 3 choices in this town that is in the middle of nowhere if I don’t want to travel a large distance every day. Factory work, a dollar store or a nursing home. I wanted a specific position at the nursing home, as I don’t want to work directly with peoples (I love elderly folks, but I get too attached and just want my grandma back 😭😭). I got approved for a job there but not the one I wanted unless it was on call. That was a bummer so I politely declined.

The dollar store, well. It’s been a long time since I’ve worked in retail for someone other than myself. At $11 an hour, I feel my time would be best spent elsewhere. Why the f am I so picky? I know I shouldn’t be at this point.

So, my next step is the factory which would be good for the benefits if I can get a second shift position, cuz lets face it, getting myself up at 5am is just not an option at this point. I’ve not had much experience in manufacturing… I’ve had manufacturing clients while doing consulting, but beyond that, just temp work with a couple companies so long ago that I don’t think they would qualify as real experience at this point. So, they may tell me I don’t qualify. I’m filling out an application tonight.

A fourth option would be to go on a walk-about. I kind of am liking the sound of that even though you should probably have money before you start a journey like that and it’s also kind of dangerous. But I have always admired those folks who’ve done that. Keeping this on my list of possibilities!

Otherwise, my mood can be summed up like this….

Probably not a popular graphic, but appropriate for how I’m feeling about the state of things currently. So there is that.

I have much to be thankful for so I def should stop complaining 🤣. My kiddo is doing awesome – she may skip taking courses next semester or not, totally up to her but she’s got a new job and apartment and is happy out living her own life. Gr0 is probably the sweetest boyfriend a gal could ask for. The rest of the fam is doing great or okayish. And my fur baby Puma may be a grumpy old man but he’s still adorable. So all is not horrible. The world and country may be in a crazy scary place right now, but all of the little things still make me smile and all of the people that I care about are doing well.